There is a rage that burns like a fire inside. Like I’m fighting the fight of my life all on my own. And sometimes the walls are closing in, and the pain takes over, free falling into bitterness- anger cynicism and doubt. Like I’m bound to lose. Like I’ve already lost. And in these dark moments when I abandon the pretence.
I shake my fist at the heavens and say, why? Why this tension? Why this life? Why? And wordless, I hear the answer, “because I love you. Because you’re mine.” And when I let go of the fight for me and mine – I begin to enter into a bigger story.
When I come to the end of myself, I find that I’m standing on holy ground.
There is a tri-tone near the end of the song, (with a note called a flat 5 or an augmented 4th). It’s been called the devils interval, with rumors, (however unfounded) that this interval was actually banned by the Catholic Church because it’s so unsettling, so mysterious.
We felt like this interval would be the perfect musical statement to end a song about The Mystery Himself. The music is meant to be a bit uncomfortable, and disturbing. We wanted to echo the lyric of the song- I come face to face with a God who will not be defined when I come to the end of myself, in the broken and uncomfortable places. Who are you, God? “Tell them , I am sent you.”